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Just a few more days before I will fly to Japan and fulfill my top-of-the-list dream: Watch Dir en grey live. Me and my friend finally managed to pull together a complete trip plan of around 12 days to Tokyo, Nagano (yes, Toshiya's hometown thank you), and Osaka (in the never-experienced-before winter nonetheless!) which includes the 2 days of Dir en grey Nippon Budokan concert *insert hysteria here*. YAY FOR THE UPCOMING FUN and oh hell for our financial crisis after the trip *dazed state*.

I tried really hard to NOT get excited (believe me, imagining Toshiya's sweat is not helping). In fact, I'm almost afraid of feeling excited. You know, the feeling of 'Is this real or am I just dreaming?' and 'What if something goes wrong?'. On the other hand, I have so many things to do before I have to go, including finishing my work >.<

Nonetheless! I'm still eagerly counting down the days :) Please do wish me luck and health!

Yes, this is me finally admitting on LJ that I have this guilty pleasure named Rain/Bi. Quite some time ago my friend showed me some videos and I fell so hard into the trap.

And then. This afternoon.

Was Rain's press conference for his concert in Jakarta. I myself looked for the information, asked to be invited. So glad that my office has a magazine for teenager too. I volunteered right away. More begging than not.

I sat right at the front. AND DAMN HE WAS HANDSOME. HIS VOICE. HIS LIPS. HIS FACE. OH MY GOD. THANK GOD. THANK YOU GOD.

Of course I asked him a question in the Q&A session. MEANING I INTRODUCED MYSELF AND HE LOOKED AT ME. DAMMIT HE WAS HANDSOME. OH MY GOD.

And my friend snatched the notes he used throughout the presscon when the event was over. Scribbles. Pen with his perfume still lingered. Oh my that sounds so sick but COME ON. RAIN.




Imagine what would I do if I ever got a chance like that with Dir en grey. TOSHIYA. I think I would faint.

...and he makes me smile every day.

HEARTS.

If this is not beautiful, I don't know anything anymore.



Every day. EVERY  DAY, this man forces me to worship him more and more.

Find more here. The photos there are awesome. I give my applause to the photographer.

KaoruxToshiya fanfiction challenge
Themes:

01. Begginings.
02. Need.
03. Tears.
04. Steps.
05. My heart.
06. Drugs.
07. 'This place is crowded, don't you think?'
08. Conversations.
09. Skin.
10. Laughter.
11. 'Nobody breaks my heart.'
12. Party.
13. 'Good Morning.'
14. Obsessions.
15. Decadence.
16. Breathless.
17. Alcohol.
18. 'I fell in love.'
19. Things Change.
20. Eternity.
21. Soulmate.
22. Books.
23. Ten years ago.
24. Truth.
25. 'You look like someone I don't recognise.'
26. Replacement.
27. Agony.
28. 'If only you knew.'
29. Glass Skin.
30. Phone Calls.
31. 'It will always be you and me.'
32. Past Mistakes.
33. Midnight Walks.
34. Happiness.
35. What?
36. Rainy Day.
37. Second Chances.
38. Youth.
39. 'Don't say no.'
40. Cigarretes.
41. She.
42. Mails.
43. Death.
44. 'Don't love. Good bye will always come.'
45. Friendship.
46. Admiration.
47. Breaks.
48. Ends.
49. Writer's Choice.
50. Writer's Choice.

Notes: Will be updated as I finish the fics

Lots of free time + Good mood + Awesome Dir en grey pictures = Wallpapers

1 KaoruxToshiya 1024x768
2 Toshiya 1024x768

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Those Toshiya entries for the Uroboros journal are adorable. Those new Dir en grey live photos are delicious to the extreme. Everyday there are new pictures! Toshiya is just such a fanboy and Kaoru is simply handsome with his hair long. And both of them have the same sticker in their bass and guitar. A sticker of Black Top Motorcycle (the clothing brand belonged to their friend) is plastered underneath their instruments (not on the back).

And I so need to have a Toshiya (or KaoruxToshiya) wallpaper from the new live pics. This one seems to be a good choice for a base picture y/y? :D

And that is because I also forced leisure activities in the midst of deadlines. Plural. But today I think I can get a good amount of sleep I need to get rid of this headache. Tomorrow I can continue fulfilling other deadlines. No way I'm gonna do them today.

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And by the way. OH MY GOD TOSHIYA. The youtubes of Dir en grey's Paris live are just so precious. Both Kaoru and Toshiya are wearing sleveless and that is one hell of a rare thing. At least lately for Toshiya. And yes you're a rock star, Toshiya, we get it. You're so cute. And you wore "Chino's socks". Better not let Kaoru know where did you get the inspiration from :D and they're playing Vinushka live! WANT.TO.SEE.

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Another precious thing is Star Trek. Subtexts are subtle but me and pseudo_shigure couldn't help but grinned and giggled the whole movie. They're too close for comfort. There are too many eye-fucking. And there are seriously too many fanfic for this movie (although Star Trek itself is an old fandom) even though I don't protest to that. What makes me sad is there seems to be little amount of uke!Spock.

Seriously, if you haven't seen Star Trek, go see it now. Then read this to get your fanfic fix.

Have been planning on this since the base layout was made on thefulcrum. Just now I collected the time and will to do it. Don't ask me why there is a yellow crow or purple cock, I just love colorful things.

And yes, if you didn't notice, they're Dir en grey as birds :) I love animal kingdom.

EDIT: I might as well tell you the story...

Cock!Kaoru fell in love with Robin!Totchi. He's very noisy in declaring his love, scaring the little bird. Since Cock!Kaoru couldn't fly, he's endlessly hopelessly trying to get Robin!Totchi into his trap with small pieces of food. Sadly, just when he was about to catch the little bird, Dodo!Die always came out of nowhere and slammed Cock!Kaoru. Dodo!Die didn't mean to interrupt, he's just always confused. Meanwhile, Owl!Shinya is watching from afar silently, often feeling disturbed by all the noise. Crow!Kyo feels satisfied with watching if not sleeping, but he loves to interrupt Cock!Kaoru's efforts too.

If you hate it, don't bother, really. If you just leave the pairing alone, it would probably be better than seeing some bashing on the favorite person of a lot of people. I've heard what you are right now and I'm not impressed. But on one side, I'm unaffected since I never bother with you in the first place :)

Ugh, this is the first time I rant about an LJ user.

I came in the studio blind about the storyline or characters background. And still was until near the end of the movie. I think the movie kinda forgot to explain things, or think that it's better to keep it until the very last.

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I knew, I knew Dragon Ball move will be a huge disappointment. But I just HAVE to see how bad it is. Well, thirty minutes into the movie and I felt like crying. And since reguretto made her points...

1. Do I even have to say anything about the plot adaption? Teenage flick? I thought high school Dragon Ball only exists in fanfictions.
2. The one who played Goku, he can't act. Sadly, he's the main character so I had to see him act a lot.
3. Yamcha. NO. NO. Is he supposed to be hot/funky asian guy? FAIL. The scene where he and Bulma nearly kissed? I cringed.
4. Modernization of Dragon Ball radar? Cheap-looking.
5. I'd have to agree with reguretto, what's with "First rule is, there are no rules"? So? From what I'm watching, they sure have a lot of rules in training themselves to get stronger.
6. Bulma was supposed to be my favorite character in Dragon Ball. Sadly, she fell bland. As if she was only something you pasted into the movie.


You know what, for once I'm grateful that such manga-adopted movie is so fast-paced. I don't care how many gaps and holes that movie has. Or else I might've walked out halfway into the movie.

I do have to give kudos to Chow Yun Fat. Great job with the character. See? You don't have to look exactly like the character to liven it up.

AND THANK GOD THERE'S NO VEGETA IN THE MOVIE. Don't ruin my earliest crush. Please pretend I didn't see the after-credit clip hinting a second movie

HAPPY 32nd BIRTHDAY, TOSHIYA!

Wish you all the happiness and love in the world. You sure are getting more and more charming as time goes by. I wonder how the hell you do that. Wish I can see Dir en grey live one day, to see you live on stage. Today I present wallpapers and fanarts (mostly KaoruxToshiya) ^^ Enjoy!



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And then I go and spoil it all by saying something stupid like I love someone.

Emangnya sinetron.

Internet this morning is really pleasant. Instantly, I was presented with Toshiya's Kerrang! video:


I melted at his awkward way to end the video. I melted at his smile.

And then the translation of the newest Kaoru's Uroboros blog entry came up:

"Lately, Toshi-bou (note: とし坊Toshiya’s nickname. “Bou” is a character that could stand for monk, son, or a person with cropped hair depending on the combination of other characters) has been updating this a lot.

Now, I guess I’ll find something to write about."

The fact that Kaoru is calling Toshiya with that nickname just made me rocketed up to the seventh heaven. Kaoru also seemed to feel surprised that Toshiya, the Toshiya that barely wrote anything in Haiiro no Ginka, actually started to write a lot. With a lot of pictures too. I guess the little tourist inside Toshiya is just too energetic to hide :D

Leader-sama won't lose. Kaoru just had to explain that the reason he hadn't post anything lately:

"This is Kaoru who forgot to bring his digital camera’s recharger and began watching 24."

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Btw, last night was a fanart hunt for a lot of pairings. I accidentally came to a Jigyoku Sensei Nube yaoi fansite. Yeshhh. Even though I can't even remember the uke's name.

Ok, someone.

Drag me back to reality and tell me that there is no RAFAEL X LEONARDO in Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles.

Just like there is no Ironhide x Ratchet in Transformers.

Despite the fact that I hate morning sunshine, I guess I really am a morning person.

Because I make the worst decisions and think the worst possible things at night. Then in the morning I would go "Why the hell did I..."

But thinking in the morning makes me hungry anyway, which reminds me to get something to eat. Now.

P.S. Dan taw ga, kalo gw ga sholat isya, gw almost always have the worst possible nightmares. Tapi kalo gw baca doa sbelom tidur, gw juga dapet nightmares. Weird. Tentu saja in my period, itu ga berlaku.

Speedy berubah pikiran.

Smalem internet gw mati lagi, taw ga? Har har. Bhubung uda malem gw tidur aja membuang sial.

Paginya gw nelpon Speedy. La la la la. Intinya teknisinya dateng lagi dan la la la la internet gw nyala lagi TANPA SPLITTER. Entahlah. Bwat apa gw ngewong dan nanya sana sini soal splitter. Untung gw ga napsu dan langsung beli.

MY INTERNET IS BACK.

Kalo menurut mas2 spidi, ada sesuatu bernama splitter yang harusnya ada di paket modem gw. Yang tentu saja saat dicari di kotaknya ga ada. Splitter ini bekerja untuk (insert nonexistent explanation here). Intinya, noneksistensi splitter ini penyebab internet gw mati berhari2.

Solusi sementara sampe gw beli splitter adalah: pake telepon dan internet ga boleh bersamaan. kalo telepon kamar gw nyambung, internet gw harus mati. Kalo internet gw mati, semangat hidup gw mati. Tapi bisa nelpon orang. Tapi prosesnya semudah plug-unplug kabel telepon dan on-off modem sih.

Di mana sepupu gw yang ahli komputer itu saat gw butuhkan? Atau seinget gw q_harukichi itu ahli beginian deh...

Pertanyaan terbesar gw adalah: Kenapa selama ini ga ada masalah?

Oh iya, akhirnya gw selese ngurus ijazah dan wisuda. Astaga. Kenapa sih. Susah amat uda lulus juga.